uncurtained | pc catchall for junpei (crashout)

Probably the best thing you can do is apologize when you think he's in a good place to listen. Can't guarantee it'll go well, and if he was that upset it probably won't go anywhere nearly as well as you hope, but worth a try.

[That's encouraging, but he's being realistic.]

[...]

I mean... We've talked since then, and he hasn't brought it up. I don't really want to rock the boat, you know? I care about his friendship a lot.

Yeah...and in a place like this friendship's a hot commodity. [So he gets it.] What do you like about this guy anyway?

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He's smart, he's kind... He always does his best, even though things here are hurting him a lot, too. And - he's funny, too. Just - everything, I guess?

[...all good qualities, and he just kind of nods slowly.]

I get it. It's not really hard to see why you'd like someone like that. [...he just kind of stares at the ceiling.] Maybe when this is all over, something can work out. Who knows?

I don't know.

[She pauses, though.]

You sure there wasn't another reason you brought that up?

[...he looks at her from the corner of his eye.]

...I don't know. I'm pretty sure I'm losing my mind but what else is new?

You aren't.

[But, all the same:]

Why would you think that?

...am I a bad person for maybe having feelings for someone that isn't my fiancée?

[It isn't what she was expecting, and she pauses, before:]

I think it matters more what you do with those feelings. [...] Who?

Let's keep working with a no-names policy. Anyway I don't...know. It's not like I'm not hooking up with a bunch of people here which doesn't help, but...I don't know. I still love Akane and I always will in spite of everything, but with all of the different versions of myself that I remember and the fact that she's not here I'm starting to wonder if it's this place or if it was inevitable.

[He looks at the ceiling again.] I also think Akane would get it which is maybe the stupidest part.

You think it would have happened even if you didn't come here?

[She pauses for a moment, thinking of the best way to respond as she chews on her lip.]

Are you having second thoughts about the engagement, or...?

No, it's not that. I still want to marry her, I know that much. But...we're also from a timeline where we're technically not actually engaged. We just remember the timeline where we were and promised to be. There's still a lot left to do before we can even think about getting married.

[Like stopping a nuclear war. But...]

I don't know if it would have, but that might've been because I know myself. I wouldn't have tried to find other people. Even in the timeline she made me forget, I know I would've spent my entire life looking for her. [A pause.] But I don't think that stopped either of us from hitting on someone else so who knows.

Well... Flirting with other people is one thing, but it sounds like you know you wouldn't be unfaithful if you weren't in this kind of situation, right? And - you also said you think she would get it.

[And, given all that:]

If you're feeling bad about it, I don't think you need to.

[Another pause to think that all over.]

I don't think I'd have a reason to be as long as she was with me, or I had the idea I might find her again. But unfaithful, I mean. Not without her knowing, but Akane sort of always knows anyway. [He taps his temple with two fingers.] It's shut off but we used to have a mind link, I guess. I never really knew how much she knew about me without telling me.

[...but.] That helps though. It's one thing for Akane to flirt with Carlos, but I wasn't really sure where to put this sort of thing on a scale, you know?

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