uncurtained | pc catchall for dick (heh) (unpredicktable)

[ it's not that dick is actively avoiding beck, is the thing. he's just trying to give her space best as he can, after... yeah.

anyway, it's the fact that he's not actively avoiding her that means when he pops into the library, he's got a shocked pikachu face at seeing her there. right. the library. the place beck frequents the most on the ship. that library. he's smart.

dick lingers at the doorway for a second, debating whether he should leave or not. it's? probably better if he leaves? is he debating too long. she's going to notice. why is this his life ]

[She does notice him after a second, and she sighs and looks back down at her book. Then, a split second later, she looks back up at him. While she isn't really assuming he's here to talk to her, the fact that he's lingering takes her notice, too.]

What's up?

[There's an attempt to make it sound casual, but. There's definitely something in her voice that isn't usually there, something a little bit flat.]

[ there is no part of her reaction to him that makes him feel good about this. wow. he should've left when he had the chance.

but he smiles, a little awkward, shoving his hands in his pockets ]

Nothing. Just... came to grab a book. Pretend I'm not even here.

[ he's going to end up grabbing the first book he comes across and bolting, is the thing. ]

[She hesitates, so he’s probably nearly at the door before she responds.]

Are you ever going to talk to me again?

[Which might be a surprise, since, well. She’s also definitely been avoiding him. Beck, please.]

[ dick's the one hesitating now, looking back at her with an unsure look, because. yeah, he noticed? but he doesn't point it out. ]

Of course. I-- [ he sighs, rubbing the back of his neck ] I've been trying to give you space.

...I just want things to go back to normal.

[And to not have watched the entire trial Happen, but.]

[ HE'S TRYING NOT TO THINK OF THAT TRIAL FOREVER NOW THANKS ]

... So do I. [ it's earnest ]

I feel like I kind of ruined it. I shouldn’t have said anything.

[She admits after a moment, looking towards the ground.]

You didn't ruin anything. I-- [ he runs a hand through his hair ] It sounds bad if I say it doesn't change how I feel about you, doesn't it?

[He probably isn’t wrong about that, judging by her expression, but she doesn’t comment directly on it.]

I don’t need reassurance, or you to sugarcoat anything. I just... don’t want you to feel like you can’t tell me the truth.

[ his hands are already shoved in his pockets about as far as they can go and yet. can they go deeper. ]

What truth?

I don’t know. Just - when I told you, it seemed like there was something you wanted to say, but you said it was nothing. I mean, maybe it really was nothing and I’m just being paranoid, but...

[ he... shrugs ]

You ever think maybe I just wasn't sure what to say?

...Right.

[With a small wave of her hand:]

Sorry, I'm just - all over the place, I guess.

[ he runs a hand through his hair with a sigh ]

You're not the only one. You've got nothing to apologize for, Beck.

...People keep saying that. Maybe I'll believe it soon.

[She runs a hand through her hair, too, biting her lip for a moment.]

I'm not the only one it's tough for.

No, but... Okay. Let me rephrase that. You've got nothing to apologize to me for.

[ it's a bit wry ]

...Same to you.

[She’s hoping he knows that already, but - just in case, to clear the air.]

[ he rubs at his shoulder with a short, awkward laugh ]

You sure about that?

[ Absolutely All Of Trial ]

[She gets what he's talking about almost immediately, and - yeah, there's a little wince. It wasn't easy to watch, but...]

It's not really any of my business what you do. I mean - in that regard.

Still.

[ it kind of became public business because [kagachi voice] bad coping mechanisms ]

[After a moment:]

Still what?

... I'm sorry you had to hear about it like that?

[She shakes her head.]

That's not really your fault, you know.

Isn't it?

pc catchall for dick (heh) (unpredicktable)

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