... I'd be lying if I said I hadn't hit a few low points in a decade.
[ dick bounces back, but-- those first few hours after that failed scenario, where he reevaluated everything he thought he knew about himself. jason. the entire invasion. wally. ]
But it's never been a real option. I don't-- I don't think I could live with myself if I wasn't doing everything I could to help people.
[And it’s probably the reason why she glances away, inhaling.]
And it’s probably going to make this sound really pathetic, but... I can’t imagine a week worse than this one. I mean, it was awful when we got into the recording studio, it was awful when we had that scavenger hunt, and today was just... So if it gets worse, what if I’m the kind of person who can’t deal with that?
... It doesn't make you a bad or weak person to not be able to just bounce back after trauma. [ he'll start off there. ] I know a lot of heroes who went into retirement after... after stuff happened. [ he hesitates, but: ] ... To be honest, I-- before I got here, I was heading off to take a break myself. I hadn't decided how much of one, but-- not the point.
[ he's rambling. ]
You don't have to be able to deal with this by yourself.
...I'm sorry you didn't get that break. [And that he has to deal with This instead. Even though he says not the point, though...] You can tell me what happened if you want to.
[Everything else is a little bit more to unpack, and she pauses.]
And that's... really sweet, again. I just wish I was more like you, I guess.
Hey, do you want to, like... [...] Okay, I know there's not really much to do here when you aren't balancing chairs on the table, but I feel like we could both use a distraction.
Works for me. [ we will be ignoring all the blood in the hallways, and he gestures for her to go ahead before following ] Think there's any way we could get some board games in this place, at least?
I had a phase where I liked to deconstruct the English language a few years back. [ he says that like he. doesn't still do it? ] A lot of it stuck, but not nearly enough to make them any more willing to bend the Scrabble rules to accommodate me. And I'm multi-lingual, so. Scrabble was more like a war game at that point.
Appreciate it. [ here they are at the kitchen and NO ONE DIED HERE, isn't that swell ] So, had anything in mind? I'll tell you right now, I am not a big cooking guy.
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anyway-- softly: ]
... I know. And I don't think it's going to get any easier.
[ he should be trying for reassuring, but. he's never believed in treating people with kids' gloves ]
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[She has a point here, maybe.]
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[ dick bounces back, but-- those first few hours after that failed scenario, where he reevaluated everything he thought he knew about himself. jason. the entire invasion. wally. ]
But it's never been a real option. I don't-- I don't think I could live with myself if I wasn't doing everything I could to help people.
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[And it’s probably the reason why she glances away, inhaling.]
And it’s probably going to make this sound really pathetic, but... I can’t imagine a week worse than this one. I mean, it was awful when we got into the recording studio, it was awful when we had that scavenger hunt, and today was just... So if it gets worse, what if I’m the kind of person who can’t deal with that?
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[ he's rambling. ]
You don't have to be able to deal with this by yourself.
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[Everything else is a little bit more to unpack, and she pauses.]
And that's... really sweet, again. I just wish I was more like you, I guess.
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[ that's the long and short of it, really. it feels weird to say out loud. it's even weirder what beck says.
he'd never talk himself down, but he doesn't always feel like someone worth looking up to at all. ]
It's... I think you're doing just fine as it is. You're a good person, Beck.
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I'm sorry, Dick, that's... awful.
[She feels like that's more important than responding to his second statement, but:]
...Thanks.
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[ he can't disagree, can't even pretend he's fine about it! but this is kind of a. don't wanna talk about it bit still. this is now awkward ]
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Hey, do you want to, like... [...] Okay, I know there's not really much to do here when you aren't balancing chairs on the table, but I feel like we could both use a distraction.
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You're right. On both counts. Unfortunately, I think a week of nausea is pushing it for acrobatic stunts. Anything else you had in mind?
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[If either of them have an appetite, but.]
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Are you a Scrabble guy, or is Monopoly more your style?
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I'm banned from Scrabble.
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What did you do?
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[ again. very proud of himself over this ]
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A little too on the nose for you?
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[But here they are at the kitchen!]
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[ thats what having a butler does to you ]
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I do make some mean pasta.
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[ isnt he hilarious. no. ]
Where do you want me?
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